usb cable

So last evening I broke into tears and I put a usb cable around my neck and looked for some support where I could attach the other end. But I could not find one. Or maybe I was not really determined to do it.

I felt very useless. And sorry. Made so many mistakes over my life and told so many lies. Lies after lies after lies as Walter White said.

Earlier on the same day, I hung out with an ex-employee from my current workplace. She told me that I must talk about the problems I am having with my colleagues to my boss' wife. She's like a tiger, unlike me. I really enjoyed her company, to the point where I felt miserable when I came back home.

I wanted to see her again, but was afraid to seem too needy and scare her away. This was one reason why I got depressed. The second reason  is that I made another mess at work, which I was supposed to fix over the weekend. When I noticed my colleague's call on my mobile, I did not answer out of fear or stress. I then considered quitting the job straight away. I imagined the consequences of this decision. That's when I broke down and looked for the nearest cable.

Luckily my depression toned down over the evening. I realized there were many things I still wanted to do in my life. I have just bought a PS2, and it would be a bad joke to die when I have not even played anything on it yet.